My Name Is Aka Episode 34

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MY NAME IS AKA
Episode 34
By AMAH'S HEART

My lesson teacher was teaching me a whole lot, including computer

It was always a great learning time, I put all my mind to it, making sure I do every of my given assignment.

He said I was very intelligent and smart, that's a good compliment and that made me wants to keep up with my learning performance and progress.

He was a young man of about thirty two years, I don't know if the age is categorized among young men but he has a young stature and face.

His name is Uchenna Blessed, his tutorial center is called Blessed academics centre. 
The same name sake with ify's boyfriend but the difference is that my teacher is brilliant, finer and very successful.

He knows too much stuffs in book that made me wonder how he does it.

He is very good in all the subjects and I wish to atleast be like him someday.

Well, Uchenna asked me to his girlfriend, he wanted us to be in a relationship.

Kiki is one of the girls that attends his computer training class.
She's 19years, intelligent and speaks fluently
Her parents are preparing her for the university.
We're friends and she was the one that noticed and told me that teacher Uchenna really likes me.

She had seen him severally staring at me and the way he gives me speacial attention.
I also noticed but didn't take it serious because learning was the key point for me.

Kiki wanted to know if I will say yes when he finally ask me out.
I told her I don't know and we shouldn't jump into conclusion of that yet.

Kiki said she has a boyfriend who loves her but if somebody like teacher Uche ask her out, she will leave her boyfriend for him because teacher Uche is too brilliant and very handsome too.

Kiki said she used to crush on him, whenever he's teaching she will watch his lips movement and imagine being kíssed by him.

That's a whole lot of distraction, meaning while she's wallowing in her imagination, she will miss every thing that's being thought. 
I asked her how she manages to concentrate when he's teaching and Kiki said anything she miss or do not understand she will go to him and he will carefully explain to her and that's more reason she loves teacher Uche.

Class ends by 3pm and he gives me extra lesson on mathematics and English for an hour.
He doesn't charge for that, he suggested it and I jumped at the offer.

It was during one of those private classes that he asked me to be his girlfriend.

I couldn't give an absolute answer, I asked him to give me time to think about it.
He agreed to do that, he kissed me on the lips twice and it felt really nice.

But as I went back home and begin to think about it, I realized that i was already getting distracted.

Nothing usually occupies my mind other than my books, but this days I will mostly think of the kíss and becoming his girlfriend which is super cool.

And I thought of what Kiki said.

I knew it wasn't time for such a huge distraction

I can live my Life as I please, date any man I want and act without giving a care to the world but I'm answerable to God and to mama Zaram

I don't want to disappoint God, I usually imagine him looking down and watching my every behavior
 if I do anything wrong I go straight to apologise to him immediately.

Like when teacher Uche kíssed me, after the second time, I was already walking in my own love fantasy, I will lay on my bed and imagine lots of nonsénse in my head.
I will leave my homework and pick up my phone. We will text back and forth, I will laugh and kept smiling while at it and will even skip my sleeping time.

I will wake up tired with puffy eyes but I will still have to resume duty

That was a whole lot for me.
I told Kiki about teacher Uche and she said I should jump at it because I'm the luckiest girl.
She said he's not a womanizer and for him to want me makes me lucky.

That makes good sense but I'm not sure I'm ready for that
After much thought, i saw how the whole thing was changing my real person, I had to go to God in prayer.

 God is my heavenly parent, I report every case to him.
After prayer and thinking it through I was convinced that this is not what I want for my life
Mama Zaram is a woman I hold so dear to my heart, she's elderly but her counsel, her prayers, her advice and care irreplaceable.

I want to make it in life, I know that alone will make her happy.

I made up my mind after final conclusion, I told teacher Uche that I can't do it.
He pleaded that he was in love with me and I'm one beautiful, intelligent girl that he can't do without.
He asked me to reconsider but I can't.

I calmly explained to him how this whole thing was already affecting my learning and life plans.

From kíssing and cuddling, it will migrate into his bed, having sëx with him at this age will begin to feel like a normal thing when is all shade of wrøng.
He will get tired when another finer or intelligent students comes his way and I will become an old school to him.

My life will become bitter and miserable.

I'm not cut out for such yet, Is a whole lot.

Getting into a relationship with him will definitely distract me greatly.

I won't even pay attention whenever he's teaching, I won't take any of my learning serious.
This learning is very important to me and I don't want anything to come in between.
He couldn't convince me further because my mind was solidly made up.

***
Venus actually left me alone for a while but I know she wasn't happy.
Sharing a room with her is one of the difficult thing to do.

She threw my things off, saying it's occupying too much of the room space. 

she will shout at me and threaten to beat me if I caution her behavior.

I was not scâréd of her, she's a búlly but she doesn't scare me one bit.
I sometimes leave her and go to the living room in the quarter
 if she comes to the sitting room, I go back to the room.

I can live with anyone, I'm not trøublesom at all
 if anyone wants to give me trøuble they will try and get tired.

It annoys her that I wasn't afráid or threatened no matter what she does.

She left me for sometime and started planning other ways to deal with me.

She told me one day that she wants to change our shift
Meaning I will be working on my off days and she will be working on my on day

I refused because my off day is the only time I go for my lesson.

I can't possibly miss any of my tutorial day because of Venus.

She refused and said that's how she wants it.
I spoke to Nneka and Nneka confronted her but Venus started raining insúlts on Nneka, saying is none of her business.

Venus said that she's the senior and can change our working day as she please.

I started missing my classes.
Venus wasn't done, she refused resuming during her duty day,
Claiming that she wasn't feeling well.

She will stay up watching movies inside and playing games on her phone, she will start sleeping during the day.

I was working my shift and her own too.

Nneka said she will report her to Mr Law but Venus laughed and said, she's having fever and can't pick a pin, Mr Law will not query her.
So she will be taking off for two weeks.

I was always busy working and I missed class during this period.

Mr Law mostly comes back in the night and leaves early in the morning.
He sometimes comes back with the same pretty Lady
He was so occupied with her and hardly have time for anything else.

The lady was a classic, clean pretty girl and speaks like she wasn't born or grew up in the country.

She always include "please" anytime she's asking for a service or something

"Please, can I get a medium coffee and chicken kebab? Thanks.." 
 "Please, can you take this to the laundry, I want it ready by morning.. thanks..."

That's the way the lady speaks and she has a nice voice.

Venus rolls her eyes at her anytime the lady wasn't watching. She's was obviously jealous of Mr Law's woman.

Mr Law stays home most weekends or drives down to see his father.

I was planning to go and complain to him anytime he's around.

Is over a week that this new Venus mādnëss started.
I have missed classes and always busy with my daily work.

Kamp came to call me one day that the gate security said that somebody was at the gate asking of me.

Who could that be, Nobody knows where I live.

I only filled my house address in the lesson form
Who then will come looking for me.

I walked down to the gate still in my working apron.
I saw Venus coming behind me

It was teacher Uche, he came to check up on me.

Is almost two weeks I haven't come to class.
I spoke with him few days ago on the phone and told him I will come around whenever I'm free

I no longer engage in long talk or chat on the phone to avoid giving him the wrøng impression or make him to assume we're already in a relationship.

I spoke to him at the gate and told him I was busy with work but will come around.

I walked back to the house and Venus started clapping and displaying that she was definitely telling Mr Law that I invited my boyfriend over to the house.

She knows that is not true but she's ready to fabricate anything just to spoil my name and remain relevant.

That weekend, she came to inform me that Mr Law want to see me, he was obviously very ångry after she reported the boyfriend case to him.

I took a deep breath, before going to go face Mr Law.

(Do NOT take credit or plagiarize AMAH'S HEART STORIES)

MY NAME IS AKA
Episode 35
By AMAH'S HEART

He glared at me from a distance as I approached him

"You fvvcking brought a man to my house? Are you nüt?

I tried to speak but he shút me up again and then went with so much rage..

".. I'm asking you a question, are you dümb. Why the héll did you bring a man to my house Aka? 

"... girls from the slum will always abuse every privilege they get. Are you kidding me right now, so you actually brought a man here, you had no fear.. dâmnít.."

"Is not true sir. I never...." 
Venus try to cut me shút immediately I try to speak.

"Sir, You can ask Kamp and the security guy at the gate. This isn't about håté or jealousy like she usually use to insúlt me, I actually warned her. She spend all night and all day chatting and talking with the same guy. She goes to see him and will spend all day with him during her off days. I was actually concerned and had to change our working time but that still didn't stop her from inviting him over. I was surprised at the effrontery but I guess it's because of the privilege you gave her sir, I'm very sure she wouldn't have done this if she feârs your orders or respect you..."Venus said to Mr Law who añgrily stared at me with disgust.

"Venus is lying sir, he's my lesson teacher and cam.."

"So you're also scrëwing your lesson teacher? Just like the case of Tobe. Tobe mentioned prøstïtütīon and hoøkup and I was dámn mad at him, i decended on him for attaching you with such but now you're begining to give me reasons to regret my actions.."
"...You bunch of women are just the same everywhere. You will choose if you want to work here or you want to be going around sleeping with men. If I ever get another complain about you again, you will definitely be leaving my house. I can't accommodate unrepentant høokup girl in my house. So think about this and make your choice on what exactly you want to do.."

"...if you choose to stay here, I don't want to see you leaving the gate except on official reasons but if you choose to make money out of your body then pick up your pieces and get the héll out of my house today, I don't want to see you around my property. Hope I'm clear..?"

My head was bent, I kept swallowing hard, the hûrt choke at my throat.

I was fighting real hard to remain strong, I don't want Venus especially to see my tears, she will feel so victorious
I also don't want Mr Law to see the íll impact of his words.

He will misinterpret my tears and will feel I was guilty as accused.

I kept my head down as I stared at my feet, trying not to look up as I struggled with my own emotions.

My heart felt so heavy and I know alot of things have been said about me before, my aunty Ego and her family, Lambert case finally sent me home, back home where l thought I will be safe, my parents and siblings accused, labelled and wanted to turn me into a money making machine, I escaped and was faced with so much painful lonely life until Mr Law offered to help. 

Getting here, I thought I will atleast feel safe, he has never used such hurtful words on me before except today.

I understand he's not the kind of man that one can mess around with but he went beyond the board today because of Venus.

It hurt so much and all I wanted to do was to go and hide somewhere and cry.

This is exactly what Venus have been fighting and working so much on.

Her évil plan finally paid off
Congratulations to her.

"... hope I'm clear..? Mr Law barked, bringing me back to reality.

I couldn't speak, if I dâre open my mouth I may end up crying aloud.

I nodded and mutted a quiet "yes sir" while I continue to look down at my feet.

Tears drop at my feet, my nose was running but I sniffed it back.

"Raise those head of yours, look into my eyes and answer my question young woman.." Mr Law ordered angrily.

I had no choice than to raise my head.

My eyes was already red from how much I have been fighting to hold back the tëars.

"Ye..yes sir.." I replied as the tears freely run down without control.

He stood watching me as I turned to leave

"Who said that you can go, did I ask you to go..? He asked but no anger dictated this time in his tune, he said it with an eyebrow raised.

"I...op..pologiese Sir." I took a deep breath, wiped off my face and nose and stood
Avoiding their serious stare, I looked at nothing

"Aka... uhmm.." he wanted to say something else
He swallowed loudly

"...You can go.." he finally said

I nodded as I quietly turned and walked away.

I silently cried as I walked to the backyard to sit alone

I just wanted to be all by myself with no one knowing exactly where i was.

I sat on the ground, close to a wall and allowed the tëars to Flow.

It wouldn't have pained this much if Mr
Law picked up a stick and flogged me rather than those húrtful words

If things were as I initially envisioned it, I suppose to be back with my parents and siblings
Going to school, looking forward to finishing my senior year and writing my Waec exam
Even if they couldn't do anything for me again, atleast finishing my secondary school would have been great 

I will be so grateful for that, I will get a job and start saving towards university but I will continue to hold them dear for sponsoring me to the secondary school level.

Why do life have to be so unfair? What did I ever do wrøng to deserve this kind of treatment.

I try to be a good person but each time I'm pushed to the edge.

I want to vent out my ánger, I want to scream, life is just unfair.

I did nothing to all this people that want me gone from this earth, none of them knows what I have been through

None of them understand my pâin or how much I really want to disappoint those who labelled me a failure.

I'm not happy, life is throwing hard pebbles on me without considering the fact that I'm only a human, a weak one who breaks down every now and then

I don't have anyone or anything to fall back to if things goes wrøng.
I only got myself and Mama Zaram who is the only person who has truly cared for me.
Is tiring, everything is getting me tired.
Is not easy and I don't know how much I can take before I lose it all.

I know I'm still a teenager but the kind of trøuble I have seen in this my age makes me wonder how my adulthood will be

Just thinking about it alone scares me greatly.

"Aka..Aka! Where are you..? I can hear someone calling me from a distance.

That must be Nneka.

She wasn't around yesterday when I got the news of somebody looking for me at the gate.

She would have spoken in my defense but sometimes, she tries to avoid trøuble from Mr Law by saying nothing untill she's asked.

"...Aka, where are you..? 
She was talking to somebody, she asked the person if they saw me

I wanted to respond but I just wanted to really be alone.

"...Finally, this is where you're hidding..." She found me after a long search.

"... there's no where Sylvester and I haven't searched for you. Even Kamp looked around and inside the pool.."

I chuckled 
"What will i be doing in the swimming pool and around the pool..? I asked wiping off my face with the hem of my gown.

"I don't know, we're just checking in an unexpected places. Sylvester even checked in the kitchen cabinet and inside pots but you're not there.."

I began to laugh. That really cracked me up.

"You're here crying, that Venus girl will be happy that she finally succeeded. You've always been strong, why did you break down today.."

"Mr Law believed her and refered to the incident of Tobe and said I should choose between prøstïtütīon and working for him. That hûrt so much.."

"Yeah, you're right. I will be broken too if such was said to me. You have every reason to cry but enough already. Your face, your eyes is all swollen from crying. I know it's not just the words, it's the journey and obstacles like this, it néver stops right? Mr Law asked of you earlier, he wanted to see you in his library but I told him that I don't know where you are, I couldn't find you and he said we should go search for you. You don't have to cry anymore, is okay...I guess he regret saying those words to you. I'm sorry on his behalf.."

I nodded as wiped off another tears.

".. you know I admire your kind of strength, Sometimes I cry too, despite how strong I seem, I usually breakdown in my quiet time. Do you know what it feels like to be reminded that you're approaching your forties, never being married, no kids and the kids that you watched grow are getting married, giving birth and you're just like a god mother, without having any one of yours. I try to wave it off so that it doesn't bother me, I want to focus on the bright side but different things will always remind me that I'm a failüre because I don't meet up with the society requirements. You won't understand how much that hurt.."

"I'm sorry that you've to go through all of that. That's an emotional battle but you managed to appear strong, unbothered, fearless and a great coordinator. I know you will make a good Mom and a wonderful wife. Thank you for giving me hope even when you're feeling hopeless. You're a great friend and I'm happy to have you in my Life.."

She wiped off her own tear, laugh a little and said with a smile

",Yeah, maybe I will start charging you for every time I have to cheer you up, if you pay twice, you will learn not to allow people's hurtful words and actions cut you too deeply. If I was dwelling on people's hurtful words, I would have wrinkled off or taken pø!son to end it all.."

"... let's go before all this our over sweet friendship talk begin to rot my teeth.."

I begin to laugh as she dragged me up from the ground.

"Have you eaten, is already late. Go and take a shower and get something to eat. When you see Venus, flash her a fake smile and don't make her glory over your hurt.. alright.."

I nodded as we walked back to the house.

(Do NOT take credit or plagiarize AMAH'S HEART STORIES)